when I was a freshman in high school, some one very wise and dear to me said, "Drue, Life sucks, get used to it." today I was a substitute teacher at the high school. there I watched the drama seeping from the whispering lips to eager ears, telling one another of who did what with who while wearing such horrible shoes. how did any of us ever make it out of that establishment alive? high school, while fun and breathlessly easy, was nothing I would ever want to revisit. For one reason; ignorance to reality. I watched 4 girls rotate in and out of the counselors office, to the principals office, to a bench to wait with their mom. Some one should tell them its not worth the hassel. this is nothing profound, but ultimately doodles.

Marianne, be the Hero.

It seems that I have shied away form my blog for more than a year, and in fact I have. by doing so I think I have proved that I am clearly pleased with my position here, but not a fanatic. but now after having graciously given this page a year to be bored. I am here, again, and ready to Blog my heart out.

1. Heart Blog confession: last night I was wide awake until a quiet 4.56am, at least, I can not be sure of the exact hour I surrendered to the morning. In those hours, I discovered 3 great truths. First, I am a Marianne and I think I know who Colonel Brandon is. Second, boys are male, male is weird. stop trying to solve. and finally after watching a movie that I had never even heard about I have concluded to my third truth, Grama is right and there is something to be said for the Hero.

2. Heart Blog confession: I am a day closer of being one month away from being 21. this is excellent, as I am striving for 27 with all my heart. I can not wait for the birthday cake that is flaming brightly with candles, boldly stating an actual representation for age. This is also my newest brainchild.

3. HBC: I make no sense, so it seems, when in all actuality, I am more clearly bursting with clarity and inspiration that I can't sit still.

HBC4: today I will watch two movies, sense and sensibility and Better off dead. S&S to put a seal on my 1800's experience. Better off dead, because this is one of my top five favorite movies of all time and it is just one of those days.